And I said,
Oh that I had wings like a dove!
for then would I wander far off,
and remain in the wilderness. Selah.
I would hasten my escape from the windy storm and tempest."
Often the Lord has brought to my mind that sweet song "It is Well With My Soul". Specifically - "Whatever my lot Thou hast taught me to say, It is well, it is well with my soul!". Oh! How I long to be able to say those words! I have been counseling others about the peace you can have when following God -no matter what your circumstances - but I myself had not peace or rest when my circumstances changed.
Even though David wanted to escape, this is his conclusion later in the chapter:
"As for me, I will call upon God; and the Lord shall save me.
Evening, and morning, and at noon, will I pray, and cry aloud: and he shall hear my voice.
He hath delivered my soul in peace from the battle that was against me: for there were many with me.
Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee; he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved."
The Lord will save me, hear me, deliver my soul in peace, and sustain me as long as I call upon Him. So the times when I cannot say that my soul is at peace are the times when I am trying to do it on my on. Nothing new, but Oh! sometimes so hard to practice!