I originally had no plans of doing this. It just came about as I looked at other blogs, prayed and read God's Word. I started thinking, what area of my life would I like God to help me strengthen the most this year? In years past, I've studied the tongue and the heart. Even though I could probably still profit from doing that study again, I felt like there was something more I needed to learn this year.
My first thought was: organization("Let all things be done decently and in order." I Corinthians 14:40). But no, I don't want to get so caught up in doing things that I forget people.
Prayerfulness...I definitely want to spend more time in prayer this year, but that still didn't seem to be the right word.
I almost settled on the word Priorities...putting God first, my husband, my family then other ministries and household duties. The word almost fit...but not quite.
What one word contained all of those things and more? Is there a single word that would describe how I'd like to grow this upcoming year? What do I want my year to be about?
I don't want to justpray to God or read about Him, but I want to develop a deeper and closer relationship with Him.
I don't want to just serve my husband, taking care of his every physical need, making sure his house is clean and he has a good meal...I want to take time to listen to his dreams, heartaches and be his best friend.
I don't want to just make sure my kids are clean, behaving, eating good meals and getting some type of education...I want to spend time with them, hold them when they cry, paint some masterpieces, have a few tea parties - win their hearts.
I don't want to just live in Ukraine, cook meals for church, pass out some tracts, learn Russian...I want to show them that I care about them personally, that my doors are always open for a cup of tea and that I love them.
Relationship...you may be thinking "Well, that's not a very hard goal." But for me, it is. As I've mentioned before, I'm a Martha type. I get so busy doing that I forget relationships. And since I tend to be a quiet type as well, it's much easier for me to just stay busy serving, especially if I might have to try talking to someone new in my poor Russian.
So I ask that you will pray for me, that God will help me keep my eyes focused on what is truly important this year.